I went to the doctor to discuss my anxiety. "Everyone has anxiety" he reassured me. He handed me a checklist and told me he would be back.
I fill out this brief, maybe 5 question checklist that rates me on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the most severe. I read through the questions and marked every single solitary answer a 5.
I stared at it. I scanned the top again that read "Generalized Anxiety Disorder Questionairre" and then I skimmed my answers again and started thinking one really does not need to be a doctor to diagnose me if they are looking at this checklist I am looking at.
Wow.
When he came back in he asked me how long I have felt like this. I told him honestly, "My entire life." He immediately started writing the referral for behavioral health. I find it so bizarre even still that I could have an anxiety disorder. My entire family is like me. If I have it, then all of them have one too. He said it tends to run in families, so I clarified, "Okay, but then how much is taught and how much is genetic?"
Seemed like a good question. Without looking up from his paper he replied matter-of-factly it was genetic. Case closed in his mind.
Wow.
So, here I am. No official dx, but I think I know the direction this is headed. Only time will tell.
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